One year ago today I found out that I was pregnant with Hudson. I started to say that I found out that we were expecting him, but really after all that we had been through, I really was too scared to expect a baby just yet. It's been such a roller coaster year. One year ago I didn't really dare to believe that we may really have another sweet baby. As he sits here on my lap as I type, holding onto my arm, my hearts is very full. There are times that I still can't believe that we made it. One year ago today was my first visit to the OB office for my pregnancy. As soon as I processed that two pink lines means pregnant I called the OB office to see when they could get me in for a blood draw. They had me come that afternoon and we had our first of many ultrasounds the following Monday (November 16, 2009) to see our little bean.
They didn't give us copies of the ultrasounds at every appointment, if I remember correctly we had 8 ultrasounds, most of them were early. So early he just looked like a little blob, but I loved seeing my little blob. Every time we saw his little heart beating away my heart would skip a few beats. That little heartbeat, that little baby was ours. There was only one person that could help us make it to the end and that was Heavenly Father. We said so many prayers for that little tiny baby. All our family was praying, our friends were praying. We felt those prayers. When you have a doctor tell you that you have less then a 20% chance to get pregnant even if you did IVF and to carry to term, you start to think it's impossible. Really, the odds were against us. We have learned time and time again that God doesn't care about odds. This little man needed to be a part of our family, and Heavenly Father got him here.
This is the first ultrasound that they gave us a copy of on November 24, 2009. It was two days before Thanksgiving and we were getting ready to go to Arizona. We had one more thing to be thankful for last year at Thanksgiving, at that appointment we were able to hear his little heart beat for the first time. It was so quiet it didn't even really register on the print out, but it shows in the bottom right corner that it was 115 bpm.


The next appointment on December 1 we were able to see a nice heartbeat at 122 bpm. He was beating the odds one appointment at a time.

After the ultrasound on December 1 we were given the all clear that we didn't need to come back until my "first" OB appointment. Things didn't work out that way so we were able to see him again on December 6 (we didn't get any pictures from that, it was a Sunday and my OB didn't know how to print them) then again December 10. When we went in on December 6 I was sure that we had lost him. The OB put the ultrasound sensor on my stomach and said "do you hear that? There's your Christmas music, a nice healthy heartbeat." It was beautiful Christmas music!
When we went back on December 10 there he was a beautiful heartbeat of 162 bpm.


It's amazing to look back over the last year. Look at all these first ultrasound pictures and know that miracles happen. We have 2 in our family. Just another reminder that His plans are usually better then mine.
Loved you once...love you still...always have...always will!